i guess what i miss most are the stars so carelessly littered across the sky
bright sparks glistening for all the world to see
smiling down on us just for me.
and you can actually hear the waves crashing against the shore in all their ferocity
and that sound just someone makes me feel a whole jumble of indiscrible feeling
but mostly for that brief i just feel at peace with the world
and i marvel at her immense beauty

sitting on the jetty with the faintest breeze on my skin
i hear laughter and chatter in the background but i am lost in my own world
in my own thoughts that play like a jumbled up movie sequence.

as i get older somehow i feel that i am increasingly unable to contain my emotions or mask my expressions as every feeling seems to be written across my face.
or maybe you are simply able to see me.
i watched rent last night and cried bucketloads.
movies never used to get to me that way.
or is it simply because as you grow older and experience more you are able to relate the scenes that are flashing in front of you on that flat screen to instances in your life
and those characters no longer become strangers but pieces of yourself.